How can two things be so different yet so attached? It's so easy to turn love into anger, yet so hard to accept anger and move on. Maybe because it's easier to hate someone then to accept the truth. Maybe it's because subconsciously we're trying to cover the wounds in an acid bath. Acid doesn't really heal wounds, it just keeps them open, never allowing them to heal fully.
It's ok to feel hurt and to feel betrayed, but wounds need to heal. Lashing wounds open over and over again hurts no one but yourself.
As painful as the healing process is, the sooner it happens, the easier it is for you to move on in life. Covering it up just increases the pain of the wound. When you rip off the band-aid to find the would festering below, you just have to start all over.
NaNoWriMo is my therapy this year. It's past time to just sit and write it all down. Let out all the anger, hurt, betrayal, and distrust in one month long session. It's beyond time to close this chapter and move onto the next chapter in my life.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Management training
The other day, I participated in management training at work. This wasn't the first time I've been involved in something like this. Scouting goes over the basic principles of leadership with almost everything that is done.
Back to the presentation. We had workbooks to go through, and the director had their book to read from. The leader sat up there, and read through her script. The problem being, there were no visual clues at to what we were supposed to be listening for. She had a few pages of reading for each page in our workbook. I spent most of the meeting lost, and was sad because I knew it could have been done so much better for very little effort.
I left the meeting knowing the same that I did when I went in. I was grateful for previous leaders that went over how to be an effective leader before hand. Leadership training can be such a hands on thing, it doesn't need to just be a lecture.
Back to the presentation. We had workbooks to go through, and the director had their book to read from. The leader sat up there, and read through her script. The problem being, there were no visual clues at to what we were supposed to be listening for. She had a few pages of reading for each page in our workbook. I spent most of the meeting lost, and was sad because I knew it could have been done so much better for very little effort.
I left the meeting knowing the same that I did when I went in. I was grateful for previous leaders that went over how to be an effective leader before hand. Leadership training can be such a hands on thing, it doesn't need to just be a lecture.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Artemisian Costuming Challenge
Some part of my insane brain decided that it would be a good idea to take on the Artemisian Costuming Challenge, or ACC for short. I'm in the middle of hitting my head on the wall and ignoring all the other things that I need to do.
My outfit for the ACC is a 14th century scandinavian dress.
image from revivalclothing.com
It looks something like this, except with different colors. I have the shift and the apron dress done. This week my goal is to weave the straps for the apron dress. I'm thinking of just doing a simple checkered white and green strap, but we'll see what happens.
My outfit for the ACC is a 14th century scandinavian dress.
It looks something like this, except with different colors. I have the shift and the apron dress done. This week my goal is to weave the straps for the apron dress. I'm thinking of just doing a simple checkered white and green strap, but we'll see what happens.
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