How can two things be so different yet so attached? It's so easy to turn love into anger, yet so hard to accept anger and move on. Maybe because it's easier to hate someone then to accept the truth. Maybe it's because subconsciously we're trying to cover the wounds in an acid bath. Acid doesn't really heal wounds, it just keeps them open, never allowing them to heal fully.
It's ok to feel hurt and to feel betrayed, but wounds need to heal. Lashing wounds open over and over again hurts no one but yourself.
As painful as the healing process is, the sooner it happens, the easier it is for you to move on in life. Covering it up just increases the pain of the wound. When you rip off the band-aid to find the would festering below, you just have to start all over.
NaNoWriMo is my therapy this year. It's past time to just sit and write it all down. Let out all the anger, hurt, betrayal, and distrust in one month long session. It's beyond time to close this chapter and move onto the next chapter in my life.
